grazed my knee during trng at MacRitchie on Thurs. now its hurtin like crazy. can't walk and sleep properly. but God did teach me a lesson through that fall and that is never to take for granted the saftey He had always granted me. Thank God for keeping me safe in HIS arms.

having quite a bit of a hard time now with running, training and all. can't perform like how i would wish too. everything's kinda a blur. need to get my direction and focus right first. was reading an article about Maria Jones, the famous US sprinter. the heading of the article read "Stay and fight, Jones, don't ever run away." so i am telling myself now, stay and FIGHT, Mel, don't ever run away. i wanna rise up stronger through this. God help. i don't wanna do things in my own strength. Please come and live out through me..can't really post all i wanna say but just the gist.got to run to catch up with the workload. ciaoz.

when the going gets tough, sail on, when the sea gets rough, sail on, when you're tempted to quit, sail on. Trust in GOD. fight on, girl. I can only give you the ladder, but you have to do the climbing. i wanna climb! GOD give me the strength to climb.

all i need is You, LORD.


yay. in the com lab now. supposed to be doing geog hw. woops. anywae, my day has been alright so far. morning didn't train. =( dunno leh. legs still so heavy. dun wanna lag behind, but sometimes just have to rest. oh ya, today is Divya's Birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY DIVYA! =) you've been a great friend. =D dun think i'll be training in the afternoon too. ='( or =)? i dunno... i failed my spelling test today.. =( got 9 out of 20. sorry, fishballs dun know how to spell. today had 2 periods of English and 3 of MAths. yay. Maths rox! Ms Kelly rox too! She's so understanding and patient. thats what makes a good Maths teacher. they neeed lots of patience to teach and teach us.. gotta go and start on geog now! bye pple. dun know where in the Bible should i start reading... shall leave a verse Malcom gave me just now. =)

"Casting ALL your cares upon Him for He careth for You." 1 Peter 5:7
Amen! thank GOD for such a verse! He cares for you. no matter how stress up you are today, you can also go to GOD and cast your burdens on Him. Thank You LORD. =D


oh ya, thanks for being there for me last nite! Thanks bro, for being there when i was down. Thanks for all the encouragement and preching! haha..touched by the word doc you did on the life of Melody.haha. =D thank GOD for you. not only to you but to all who has been there when i was down, when i needed someone to talk to. thanks. countless names: Ian.James.Jessie.Aunty Annie.Daph and many more! =D thank GOD for what a blessing you've been to my life

this morning i woke up at 630? yup. went to train at Pandan. =( legs still just as heavy and tired. sad. sacred can't train properly in the coming week..ah..then reached home bathe and had to rush of for worship practice. was late..woops. reached there and Ian was praying.. and it was like. i knew i wasn't right. i had to get right with GOD. so i prayed. and ya. sang. then Pastor Mike's message was so timely. haha..needed it so much

Recapuring your Spiritual Passion
Text: Titus 2:11-15

1. Appreciate the Liberating Salvation of God (v11)
   a. We have been redeemed from the curse of sin.
   b. We have been released from the control of sin.
   
2. Appropiate the Enabling Spirit of God.
   a. To leave the old life.
   b. To live the new life.
   
3. Anticipate the Returning Son of God.
   a. The return of the Lord can happen immediately.
   b. The return of the Lord can happen instantly.
   

That was the gist of the message, all Pastor Mike's points. Powerful message. Thank God for so many responses to salvation. many hands raised today =D

Have you lost that FIRE? that zeal that you once had for the Lord? come back to GOD today! He is wating for you. Cast Your dependace on the Lord.

Dear God, would You give me a fresh appreciation of Your Liberating Salvation? i've lost it. frankly, i just dosen't hit me anymore. i've heard the same story so many times. but LORD, just this once, please impress it on my heart again. help me not to take Your sacrifice on the cross for granted. Thank You that sin is no longer my master. i am now free from the power of sin. Father, I want to right now surrender my life to you. LORD, rekindle the fire. Help me leave the old life and start to life the new life. Lord, help me. by faith, i depend and trust. Help me to be ready for Your return. Lord, arise. arise up in me.

last night didn't go teenz worship cos was at the coach recgonition awards 06' at the dunno what waterfront hotel near Great World. haha. it was grreat! so grand. had a 8 course dinner. yum yum. wennt with Khai Leng, Yvonne and Guo Pei. haha. then very funny..cos the guest of honour if i not wrong, looked like some one in track from another school. then we laughed. we had sportsmag in our goodie bags yaya..sportsmag had so many articles abt sports school pple..then i go and kop an extra one..coach sent me back and ya, bathed, went to sleep. oh ya, yest also was north zone colours and like hundred plus pple from ss all wearing bright red blazers..the hall was like all red..haha. then all the girls were "plaster. plaster." cos all wearing the black court shoes all kenna blister. last night while sitting at the dinner table legs felt really heavy. this morning went for training. wah, i almost died. legs were killing me, so heavy plus all the lactic. dunno whats up with me, didn't keep up with Yvo and Kl after the second set onwards..then cos after trng all plan go raffles city the NB shop to shop. then i couldn't go. but i was very touched by alll the care and concern of the runners. haha. they all ask me why cannot go even suggested waiting till after my worship practice..wow. just felt so good. cos i know pple care. =) issn't it great to know that pple care for you? lol..went to worship practice tired and feeling not so very ready to worship. ate with the rest of the worship team at Adams. went backand rested for half n hour in the sentury. so siok. ahaha..at 2 had christmas choir practice...then ya ended at ard 430. came home. i read newspapers to keep myself updated and here i am at the com. being chased to bathe *eeee. smelly* haha. okay, shall go bathe.

i haven't said anything to you or told you anything doesn't mean i'm alright. i'm just shutting up, keeping it in cos i don't wanna bother you anymore. you have many other better things to do. i'm hanging by the thread, wondering when will i let go.
argh..why is my mental so weak...
bring me back to that first love? will you?


yaya. finally can blog. =) hmms..in com lab now.anywae, the previous week passed by really fast. now it's already the middle of a new week..training's been alright. today had x-training. did areobics. it was kick boxing. very fun! quite happy cos goanna finish the movie. yays! had fun with all my team matss.laggaing behind in my timetable. =(

i want God, in my life. what must i do to really be where i want to be in my relationship with Him? dunno. it's just like haiz..that's the problem with being a second generation christian. or maybe that's just excuses that i'm giving myself? GOD, i'm in desperate need of You. I just can't go on without You. You are life. You'rea ll I need. You'rea the LoRD of everything. all i need, this is why i humbly sing. Your strength is sustaining and Your grace has made me free, YOU'RE my hearts lone desire, Your're all i need. the Bible is just so familar, it just dosen't regeister as the Holy Word of GOD. GOD, wake me up.

maybe what coach said was right. i like the colour green and from the colour one can tell your character. green means go ahead. means i'll be like, this ar? okay lor. that ar? okay lor. everyhting also go. somehow i feel inferior. inferior to everyone else though i dun wanna be and feel this way. i guess every teen longs for reconigition and ya..anyway..LORD help.


feeling so argh! now.. shall talk about it later. today had a great time worshipping on the choir. thank God for a good time of prayer. there're some questions i have about the passage, John 4. Jesus said that whosoever drinks of the living water shall never thrist. Then, why then, do christians thirst? why do we still feel so day at times? is a different thirsting the LORD is talking about? why does the beautitudes talk about, blessed are those who thirst and hunger after righteousness for they shall be filled. hmms..yup. after chuch came back home, took a really short nap then went to Chua Chu Kang crematetorial to visit my grandfather and gradaunt. after that went to Creative to fix my mp3.. ! they nicely deleted the recording i took of Marcus sermon last friday..argh!! that's why i'm feeling so irritated and..ya. plus, =) my hw! yay. claps hands. got to go eat my duck noodles now, after that will start on work liao.


Thinking back, i do miss those times i had with individual teens. the times i had with Anne, Ian, Ter, Bev, Amanda, even baking at Zen's house with Ner also. the Sunday afternoons we'll spend at Ian's home fellowshipping and playing Bible Outburst..and many more that i didn't meantion. =D well, insted of looking back, i should start to look forward! =)

God, grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change...
courage to change the things i can and
wisdom to know the difference.


heyas. today's Saturday! lol. like you didn't know that. hmms. yay, i'm happy cos last night managed to interview Alina for our architecture project. we're almost done. yays. anywae, back to today: had trng at Macritchie at 9am. :) did a long run. was kinda alright. just praying hard that He'll give me strength to train in the coming weeks. it's not going to be an easy road ahead. trngs goanna be tiring, schoolwork lots. yup. the thing that comforts me most is, you know what? the quote"GOD's will cannot lead me, where His grace will not keep me" issnt that so comforting to know that no matter what, God will see me through? :) thank You, LORD. went to J8 for branch with most of the runners. ate at KFC. haha. i'm such a slow eater? ... chiong back home and, nicely, my beloved brother was still asleep and it was 1pm. we would have to be in church by 2pm for worship practice. so he woke up at 1.30pm after i finished bathing. and we chionged in a cab there. oh ya, i've just joined the worship team. in Ian's team. thank God for this area of service. throughly enjoying myself, singing my heart out. went to Adams with some of them then thay left for Ian's house. i was still deciding. few things i realised about myself, i am very indecidesive and also very proud..yup.. anyway after deciding..i decided to stay in church for super seminar but before that i was going to shoot the PIG! haha. at coro, if you look up with your back to coro, u'll see a house with looks like a pig and its so cute. haha. wanna use it for my video project. then, a lonely walk down the street. i decided to walk around for awhile, just me and God. it has been a long time since i've been alone. it was nice. refreshing. just walking down the quiet street with occasionally, the sound of passing cars. i was in a side street to the left of crown center there. just walking, walking..so siok. didn't really talk much to God, but just having that silence from a life which is so busy was good. :D went back to church and sat through the lasts of the super seminar. after that went to Adams to eat dinner with my parents and i ate crab kuey tiao. haha. from the beri famous prawn noodle stall. okay, and now here am i typing at the keyboard. this is such a long post. ahaha. =) i'm so dead cos there are hw due next week which i haven't touched. lol. :)

No matter how much i try, i'll never be you. the way you reach out. you are so faithful and steadfast. but i know, GOD made us all different and we are all unique with each of our good and bad points.. but still, i wanna be you.

LORD, help me. forgive me. help me to be content with who You made me to be. help me to be just who You want me to be. :)


yay. finally a new skin. think i will be keepin to it for some time.. this hols passed by quite fast for me. so fast and it's friday! had training every morning. in the afternoons, mon:slacked, slept
tue:went out with trackers to orchard. yay. we took neos and stuff. had a fun time at KFC waving to pple walking outside. at night went for bs. :) wed:supposed to go east coast in the afternoon to help coach with the primarysch kids but decided to stay home to catch up on the workload. at night went for christmas chior practice. thurs:went out to get my video project done.filmed buildings at bugis. -_-"' but it was good. we managed to complete alot of stuff.yay. Thank GOD. fri: which is today. got to leave the house soon to meet Anthea and Anne to go sks. after that go teenz worship. yay. then meeting Hin Ann tonite to film Alina abt architecture..

realised on thing about my Christian life. recently, i've been trying to find things to bring me closer to God. thinking that going to prayer meetings will help me find what i want, getting a new Bible and notebook will help? i don't know, so many things i've been trying to do so that i can meet God. then i realised that no, its not about doing stuff. it's about speding time alone with God. seeking His face (whatever that means) . even after realising, look at my cold and heardened heart, i still don't spend time with Him though i know i need to. I give myself excuses like i have no time. really? this whole week didn't do devotions.

kae, i really gtg and pack to zhao liao. bye.

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