wow. another week has passed. many things happened. so much to post about. hope i don't miss out anything...here we gooooooooo!

Sunday
Went to school pretty early. Celebrated Divya's birthdae..it was fun..hahas. went back up to dorm at ard 9.50pm. took a quickk shower, washed up and went to bed.

Monday
Can't say i always look forward to morning trainings. just that this whole week been really tired. so lartigic. morning is like can't wake up for training. so i did oh ya. outside training. round a hill which is 800 metres per loop. did 6 rounds. then had all the funny itchy witchy bites after that. had christian fellowship at night. that night they were sharing the gospel. so i went to see see. wow.i can sae. the worship is fun. cool exciting. whatever. but i personally dont think i would be able to truly worship God with my heart soul mind and strength with like jumping about and all those stuff. this is a personal preference. the worship went like this. we started with songs. we had the electric guitar, drums and piano. started with the song ONe Way. at the chorous part. everybody started jumping abt. then Worthy is the Lamb. it's a nice song.
i like it. nice lyrics too.

Worthy Is The Lamb

Thank You for the cross Lord
Thank You for the price You paid
Bearing all my sin and shame
In love You cameAnd gave amazing grace

Thank You for this love Lord
Thank You for the nail-pierced hands
Washed me in Your cleansing flow
Now all I knowYour forgiveness and embrace

Worthy is the Lamb
Seated on the throne
Crown You now with many crowns
You reign victorious

High and lifted up
Jesus, Son of God
The darling of heaven crucified
Worthy is the Lamb
Worthy is the Lamb

Oh the blood of Jesus
Oh the blood of Jesus
Oh the blood of Jesus
It washes white as snow

yup. that's Worthy is the Lamb. then we also sang Still. a very nice song too.

Still

Hide me now
Under Your wings
Cover me
Within Your mighty hands

When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with You above the storm
Father You are King Over the flood
I will be still and know You are God

Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know His power
In quietness and trust

Tuesday
oh, had rest in the afternoon so went to recrational room to do hw. haha. i'm so proud of myself.i told myself that i would go and play games, and i didn't! haha. got back my chinese cloze passage test marks back. i failed as expected. haha. 9/20 okay. i had 2/10 for my cloze. it was the writing out the answer part which pulled up my marks. didn't understand the question so i bracked the whole paragrah. at my answer there, i wrote" Refer to ( )". haha. am i pro or pro?


you know what. haha. i know how to access blogs with the school com though they blocked it. haha.yays! so now i can access blogs.

pls pray with me about my roommate decision for next year. it's either my present room mate, amanda lau or anthea. i really dunno.

Wednesday
can't remember much. just know was pretty down. din't wanna tell anyone. cos i hate to discourage other people. i think i stopped reading the Word today. had no time. ya rite! actucally if i wanted to i could have made time. so many times, i have just so many excuses just not to spend that preious time with God.

Thursday
hmm. didn't have afternoon training today so i went to rec room again. this time i played! datona 2. pretty fun.

you know what?

there's seriously something wrong with me. there's a part of me always longing for that high feeling and when it's not there, i'm down. yet there's a part of me which knows that that time will come when it comes. i can't force the high. and a christian's character is really seen during the times where there is nothing special going on. the ordinary times. Melody!!! argh...i get so down cos of this. and i'm so stuck. then i give myself excuses when i wanna worship to lift my soul. i always can't think of a song. i get stuck.

Friday
dissapointed with myself. wanted to share the Gospel with Kristine. but. i was wating for that high feeling. the time where i can feel the Spirit is with me. NO.THIS IS ALL WRONG!! i don't need to feel the Spirit. He is there for me ALWAYS. see what i mean. one part of me wants this. the other part knows what's right. so i went for teens worship. then like Ian preached on discouragement. Luke 10:38-42. about Mary and Martha. when Ian asked, " are you discouraged? are you tired? are you lartagic?" i was like SO YES..haha.. you see, i really need help with this feeling thing.

I remember a friday night where the Spirit of God really opened my eyes to my problem with feeling and facts. but now.... i'm back to square 1..

sighs. i need help!!

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