hey! realised that i act haven't post for quite a long time. just back from the Look of a Leader Camp. Thank GOD i could even make it. it was like a miracle. =DD a few weeks ago, i remember praying "GOD, please be so real to me" and HE was! GOD is good. So came the time for leadership camp and even last Sun people were asking me, are you going? the friday b4 i sent out some sms to some of the adult leaders asking them to pray for me as i ask my coach for excuse from trng. on mon, got back to sch and heard that Sat morning's trng would be an important one, so i thought, that's it. i can't go for the camp liao. but that night Ian called me and told me about the "make up camp". so it just shows how little faith i have. then came tue, i realised that we wouldn't be doing the impt trng on Sat but on thurs afternoon. so my heart was lifted abit, yet fearful as to will my coach allow? how to ask him? thank GOD he gave me the courage, wisdom and strength to ask my coach on Wed afternoon and he told me he'll tell me the answer the next afternoon. all the while i was praying, GOD please work in my coach's heart. let him allow me to go for camp. and true enough, GOD will make a way, when there seems to be no way. He works in ways we cannot see, He really made a way for me. =) my coach said i could go! and didn't have to even do self trng or anything. coach said since it'll make you happy, go. enjoy yourself. =D GOD is good, ALL the time! and ALL the time, GOD is good. thank God for all the prayers of pple ard me too. thanks to all who prayed. so down to the real stuff, the camp:

Day 1 (Friday)
met in church. took a cab down to the campsite with Christine, Bernice and Marcus. woops, just realised haven't split the cab fare yet..had 1st lesson on Concern and split into groups for discussion. in my room, my roommates were Christine, Bernice, Jessie and Daphne! all very fun and loving pple. haha. =) slept. then in the middle of the night, we played the pulling blanket game. cos i was at one end so ended up with no blanket and was freezing. i decided to mummify myself in the sleeping bag and i was warm and cozy able to sleep again.

Day 2 (Saturday)
woke up and had devotions outside. found a nice and quiet spot. then Anne found me. =) haha. she said it was a nice spot. the day went on, had a lesson on Commitment. discussion on some concerns. lunch, then another lesson on Courage. went on to play some games. must admit, i was quit irriated and angry. wasn't supposed to be. even my group members were all having a fun time and ya..there i was thinking other stuff. it's really the mindset. sorry. all the games were very revealing. went for dinner. then another lesson on Consisteny. but before that we had like discussion time and just bringing up points learnt from the game. must say i was afraid to speak up. had stuff to say, but since its over ya... was fighting sleep when learning the fourth lesson and sorry Shiekinah and Maja if i distracted u all. was like eating stuff and constanly changing seat position. felt i needed to talk that night. i knew only GOD would underdstand. but my sturbbon self wanted to talk to man, someone i could see. Ian left early. i talked to James. b4 i did i was like in a crazy mood. sorry i broke my word, said i would repent. sometimes its just so tempting to think "wai" ya.. haha. right, Bernice, u know what i mean. talked to James abt running and like how i felt i didn't know why i was in this camp.. thanks James. and after we finished, i went alone, to talk to GOD. told God how i desired to meet Him. to be able to get out of the mess i'm in. Asked GOD to be real to me. and its like i knw there's one day left and the pevious 1 and a half days nothing much happened.. went to sleep waiting on GOd, to do something in my life.

DAy 3(Sunday, TODAY!)
woke up at 7. was supposed to wake up at 630 with Bernice to put toothpaste on Jessie, but hai, plan failed cos i didn't wake up. showered, took my stuff and went out for quiet time. to my suprise, someone was already at the spot, it was Anne. =) i shared the space with her. and we each did our own quiet time. then suddenly she ask me what are the words of don't forget and then i say, let's sing. so we sang, tears rolled down my cheeks, i think hers too. the song, when we thought of the words were so true. "How the time has gone by, and the memories have died. I've forgotten the joy when in Him i abide." and we went on to sing My God is Near. i thought about the first few times Anne, Ian and me sang it.. in the santuary, usually b4 the wed bs. Anne would play it on the piano, i would sing softly and Ian would just sing along at parts he knew the lyrics.. then suddenly Anne said, Let's pray. i wasn't quite prepared but, ok. so she suggested i start first, which i did. i prayed, and the Holy Spirit really led. it was just, i was broken if you may say.. i just told God everything on my heart. nothing to hide from Him cos He is GOD and He knows. and when i did that, i just felt GOD's presence so real. I knew He was there cos its a promise in Matthew. i could have gone on forever and wanted to. but ya, Anne prayed afer me. and we two were just broken. Anne closed in prayer, we finished with singing a Passion for Thee. then i hugged her, we knew what had just happened was from GOD and something only GOD can do. we went in, back to the bungalo, with swollen eyes but happy hearts, glowing faces. WE HAD JUST MET WITH GOD, ALMIGHTY! =D and to think of it, who am I, that GOD should show Himself to me? am i worthy? just Thank GOD. my heart overflows with praise to the LORD. and ya, after that ate breakfast. worship. worship was GREAT. lesson on Character. discussion on Samson. lunch. wrap up lesson. testimonies and thanks giving. =) home sweet home though i didn't really want to leave. its like there i'm not even concious of the day or date. going back is like going back to reality but its still something i must do. thanks Maverivck for the ride to Jurong East. Thanks Shawn for kindly giving up your seat on thecar for me. =) appreciate that.

overall, i would say the camp was GREAT, AWESOME, FANTASTIC - cos i met with my GOD. through it all, i see that HE's REAL and HE answers prayers! Jeremish 29:13. When you seek for Him with all your heat, you'll find Him. Amen to that! Thank God too for the oranising committe, Ian, James, Melvin, Sister Annie (plus Edmund) . Seto and Sister Abigal too.

May we go back, with the song Keep Your Heart in our hearts. may this Passion go on and on and not just a one time thing.

Thank YOU, dear God for everything thats happening. Please send a revival. may the truths learnt be kept in our hearts. =) GOD, i love You. Continue to be so real to me. Thank You Lord.

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